i fell for the ferst tyme.
i stood back up.
Slight pain.

I fell again for the second tyme.
I stood back up, with difficulty.
With much pain.

I fell for the third tyme.
Should i stand up again?
I dont even noe if i have
the courage to do so.
I fear of falling again.
SHould i feel the pain?
Or should i jus lie down?

I am dire state.
Confused. Pain.


Is morphine the answer?

goodness!it's been a few days since i last bloghoppin'.
well, bored again...hahax..
btw,i aint really got a mood to go jln raye thingy on the 3rd nov..it aint blending..
but hopefully YES!
hey kamu! kasilah semangat..tak gerek seh..

school's bored!

i feel worst. worser!
shit!shit!shit!
i'm bored u see..
school has nothing now!
wake up early in the mornin and and going to school like a
dumb ass@$#%^&!i need better stuffs! u know, STUFFS!!
stuffs= ANYTHING!!
all in my mind is shit now!
dont get it wrong..it's what i can think of u see..
suppose to tell that ### i'm not in school but who cares! i'm different now..
u promised with the old girl! not me! haha!!
ok2..
i'm a freak today!!

the stupid mood

seriously speakin..im not in a mood..
depression is in me..
n i'm a former part-time idiot..
problems for the bloods sides..
havoc bursting my ears..
criticizers n haters disturbing my girls..

shoots...i just cant stand it..its piercing inside..
n getting even..
wadevalah..

nxt yr..me turn sec2..i'm concentrating more towards studies(u dont believe my words??my bet..)
n my passion..singing..(hmm..)
i juz wana be an unknown rocker..
without telling who i am..what i like..

hate suckers who disturb this rocker here..
player??me??not my game..i hate players..even sweet-talkers or maybe flirters..kos they are jus wadeva..(i dont care..u my bro??stop that habit..u my fren,dont do that thing..)
it aint no matter i'm a victim or not..so as long as i say PLAYERS are piercing  every womens heart!)
but if there's women outside being a player,i call that bitch..(it's not a vulgar..it's a vocabulary for some circumstances..)

criticizers..oh shoots..another one..
actually its ur habit..
but if it's not..i dont knw what to say..haiz..


i need peace..
i need no works..
peace can happen anytime IF U JUST SHUT UP FOR THAT TYPICAL MOMENT!
it can be in my room..the toilet..or anything..
so long as no noise occurs..

ok2..i'd better stop this wadeva stuffs..
once i'm chill..i'll be ok..

-schoolz-

today's friday....

i had my maths test..
my invigilator was my discipline master..
and when he step right into my class..he kept on smiling..
so i told shuting..'siao ah this DM!'

then after exam..as usual..i went home straight..
i went back with humaira and she was quite annoying..
so i repeatedly say 'shuddup lah slenger..'
khairul was also kpo..suddenly walk beside me and was making my blood so the upstairs!
lucky he nvr took the same bus as me if not i would haf killed him..(irritating shortie)
hais..reached home ard 11.12 am n feeling so tired!

but i cant wait for tmr..meet 3arts!
woow!! c u guys!

-schoolz-

hello....

yesterday was quite ok lah my day in school....
i had my english paper...
and it was abit difficult..hehe...

janice was still siao2 after she told me she just broke up...hais..masih muda sudah bercinta...
shu bin with her cute hello kitty file..dorts..
and humaira rebond her hair again..LOL!
when i showed jess my neoprints.. she say i very siong eh! walawe!
and luckily got no spotcheck!

the invigilator was like so naggy that i cant even concentrate during the examination..
and i went home straight after the examination..ard 12.15...

today's wednesday..

thursday...
friday...
SATURDAY!!

6th october!!!
hari yang teristimewa buat saya!!(ceh..bahasa baku seh..)
i will be having iftar with 3arts!!

tak sabarlah..
dapat juga aku berjumpa dengan my second family...
alhamdulillah....

so meet u guys soon!!!

tapi kite nak buke kat ane eh???
sape2 yang tau bilang lah!!
my mum tak fair!!
semue dier tak nak bilang!
tak aci!!!dier ckp nak pergi ikut je..
jgn bnyk tnye...

hmm.....