i will  be damn busy from the 2nd june onwards so i wont be posting here
as i have 2 other websites to take care of,3arts cming up shows,studies,family,blablablabla....
bye!
b bck on either end of june or july.
cya!
tke cre everyone!

byebye

hello guys..

bad news..
for eric dill

i left him.
i'm sorry eric..i didnt mean too..
but now u're not in my heart anymore.
i'm leavin..
i haf someone else in my heart now..
i love jesse mccartney.
he's hotter..
he sings cute songs.

that's all i can say.
because he told me..


Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress


Just tell him to the left left left

Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress

Cause we gone & we gone & we gone

No stress, no stress, no stress

Girl you deserve nothing but the best

No stress, no stress, no stress

Girl you need to tell him…



so..
i think its true..
byebye eric.

gosh..
any guy will comment me and say i'm gila..
but for girls..
he's ULTIMATELY MINE!

iqah..i knw u are too setia wif taufik batisah.=)
but..me??
i know i'm not setia..but nvm..
HAHAHA!!!aku merepek lols!
aku sayang kamu jesse!!

gtg!





btw i'll update he's latest pic soon!
cya..muacks!

yo!!

sup..today's friday and now it's 15 mins to 4am..
i'm enjoying myself right infront of the computer as u can see..
i define myself as crazy for now.
i want morphine.
who wouldn't one morphine in this dire state?rite?
huh..
i'm critically lost.
because i'm attitude.
right?i am right?
yes i am.
but i dont want this..
i still remember, last year october 2007.
someone made me this state.because he's stupid.
yeah.but now, he's still my god brother.
the emonians acts developed during december.
about friendship misunderstanding.
january.i move away from my loved ones.
i need to be alone on that moment,although i cant.
feb and march.everything was fine.but i'm attitude.
i carried out an attitude of sensitivity,negative points and rebelling.
april.i broke up with my bestfriend.long developed story.the end.
may.i'm still the same.even during my birthday.
may 17th, i had a big fight with my the other bestfriend,over
small misunderstanding.then, we're fine.
ppl hate me now.
i'm getting worst.
i know.

now i have to be brighter.
think the positive side.
dont be too sensitive.
enough of ego.
i will still be stubborn.
doing things i'm not suppose to.
because the stubborn in me has nothing to do with my ugly attitude.
but it does not mean i'm being sinful.
it has nothing to do with it.


can you help me?
love me back.
i need ur support.

anywae..its been like a few days i nvr mt my cuzzie..
hey giler,aku miss kau okay.haha
c ya this sat.



*i dont know wether i want to give or not to give.
sometimes i want to move forward without you but sometimes i still
one to be with u and move together with u.
sorry.
i cnt decide.
because i'm afraid to fall again.
i fell a couple of times this few months.
and now i'm in dire state.
i want morphine.
is morphine realli the answer??



 

everything is back to normal now..
i hope i can be a better person..
although its not that easy..
yesterday was super boring..kos i did'nt go to skul..
i just used the com and then i listen to a song..
titled; balada seorang teman..
the song was nice with the impact of drums,grand piano,electric guitar,bass,and of kos,
M.Nasir! the song was dynamic for me..
nicey nice!
wwwwooooooohhhhhhooooooooo!!
i got the chords for the piano parts!!
yey! i can play that song already..although some parts especially
the chorus there's no piano..sobs..
but still the opening and the closing will be GRAND ABISS!!
now..i just finished watching a show from dvd..about indonesian dance!
oklah..
frm borneo..jawa barat..jakarta..nusa tenggara..nusa timur(if i'm nt wrng)
gd!and btw,i've uploaded my so-called artistic pix..so tke a peek!
well..i gtg now..
tke cre readers!

















                                         iqah,everything is back to normal again..
                                          no more fights ok??tke cres..

haha..aku dah agak dah...

sape seh yg nk gaduh pat blog at the first place??
korang fikir aku nak ke??
satu conflict ckup ah..
abeh dier yg tulis dulu terus salahkn aku yg aku dah gaduh
dgn "not only her" whatsoever..
pls eh..think b4 u say,sape yg tulis dulu ni skg??
panggil aku pompan?
nak hampuk aku?
nak kasi penampar??
terus bilang kak ti that this has happen for quite some times and i'm not the only one??
f.y.i,i've had enuff wif 1 conflict..aku pun bengang..tau..
and jaga mulut tu. career will be career..personal will also be personal..
ok??
dah aku tk nk reply ape2 lagi  kalo ade konflict..
mls!
mungkin aku terkasar bahasa dgn kau ke ape ke,
i'm sorry..infact aku memang tk nk gaduh dgn kau..
i nvr thought u'd call me pompan..
my dear fren,wif tears i tell u now..
the changes in me has affect alot of ppl..but i need kasih syang yg semula jdi
to cure me back..
pls dont fight anymore..

byebye monsta!

HEY POMPAN!

this is life!
ko tak leh expect orang nk blg kau baek2 kn??
eh,skg sape sak yg pekak??aku tau aku attitude!
but u ppl dont knw wads goin on in my life!
soo betina jgn nk step pat sini!
anyway aku tkya nk fake kan muke aku pat org..
aku bukan ular kepale dua!
cm kau sial!
maksud aku on that dae bout that part is easy,bkos i told u 6h b4 e show,but u replied its
not ur fault..yes its not...and b4 the show..u still repeat e same thing!robot kepe??!!
memang part tu easy,tapi ko pikir aku leh nyayi that part ke??!pikir ah!kalo nk buat malu aku ckp!
he told us on fridae yes he did! i just ask him just now!again!
AH! tu kau nye psl ah!
u called me a big shot!
skg sape big shot..waktu rehearsal selalu kecoh?!cm bapak kau nye tempat??
and aku tak buat balqis waktu tu bekos i was thoroughly upset wif someone for setting me up!
kau ape tau psl hidup aku??
if u think u dont change,then ask urself!
i cant help u!u can rebel all u one but not wif me anymore!
and org cam kau tk tau differ between personal life and career..
aku tkde tulis ape2 terjadi pat blog aku kan??
yg ko nk bilang pat blog kau tu asl??
ouh..i knw..u need someone to hear ur story..
fine!
so now i also need someone to hear my story..
anyway wad's wrong wif u??
yg tiba2 nk buat kn perkare kecik jdi besar??
ouh aku tau..ko tk pernah gaduh..
ko nk jadi spoilt brat jugak lah ni??
pape ah..and u want to knw y i fought wif syimah??
even no one realise this all these while..even syimah..
someone else in 3arts set me up..
i scolded her and then she's not happy! true.
but i said sorry to her..i hugged her..
then everything was fine..
then she told syimah other stories..that i scolded her and dah??
tapi tukau nye psl ah nk percaya ke tak..pls..old stories aint need a comment.
cm sial gtu
manusia..suka bermuka2..
bayang2 dah jam kat otak..
kesian..
DAN KAU!
tu ko nye psl ah nk continue ke tak..aku mls..small matter dibesar2 kan...sayang..it's too childish..ko nk aku define talk nicely kan??
skg aku bilang pat ko..
NICE IS TOK Nicely to others..not rude..
but mine is R.U.D.E..
ok??
i define already hor..
i'm attitude..i'm born wif it..
i dont change from nice girl to attitude girl..
like some ppl..
suddenly nk jadi rebelious..
ape??slame ni ko marah2 aku tak rebelious ke??
part office lame waktu rehearsal..
tu pun kat holding rm berani backstb aku cm aku ni pekak gtu kn
dgn waktu tngah berdiri tnggu ambik gmbr ngan ziana!
dalah..one day..u will accpt my attitude..but not from me,from others attitude..
aha!!i gt a nick name!

-MS ATTITUDE.


i knw i haf been attitude..(i'm toking to my readers)
i learn from it..
being stubborn..
i learn from it..

now,i accept critics from anyone..
kos i have learn from it..

learn not to be attitude anymore and be a better person
when ppl are teaching me.

-MORON

btw aku pergi bdae celebration dgn ayun yesterday..kak fiiez n e gang yg ajak..
soo..we just say ok..
abg amin was there..he's so annoying..and he's a moron..haha..
then there's this abg name elfee or alfi..
he kept calling me and ayun like adik ok??kakak ok??

he called me adik sak and was super annoying..haha..
but he's nice..kos yesterday my leg hurts..jalan pakai high heeled lame sngt..haha..
wif that shoe frm vivo to suntec..how??
haha..then he wanted to get me a shoe..
i was like huh??for real??yes..we just gotta noe each other and he wanted to get me something..
pelik xiolx..
he wanted to get me a slipper..masuk kedai je..nak??
masuk kedai lain..nk??
of kos i say tk nk lah..
then kite tengok conkak..ni plan abg ameen..
abg ameen duduk ngan matair dier that is kak fiiez..
then abg elfee duduk wif me and ayun..cam..nk step romeo seh..
nk tau kenape..
kalau ayun and me takut..leh peluk dier..sialah..
ape saje je..tapi dier main2 je..dier cm abg kite actually..
movie congkak was seram,kelakar,boring..hehe..
it was not seram for me..kos its obvious..
i was suppose to share nachos wif abg elfee and ayun by end up..
i finish up the nachos..lame..
haha..ok..gotta go..

lol! btw hello..

sorry for the late post..anyway,
i just had my performance @furama on saturday..
byk conflict lah eh..
tah eh..kalau aku ckp skg pun entah aku pun tk tau lah..
aku tak salahkan kau..aku tak blame kau..
skg kau bukak telinga..
dgr..
ur bullshit is driving me crazy for months!!
u change alot!!!

u make me felt like i knw nothing..
i talk nicely and u reply in a rebelious way..
as if u knw everything..

wat i meant when i told u on stage is ur'e suppose to sing that part..
but u did'nt knw..ok lah..that's between u and abg wan frm now on..
yg kau pakse aku suruh nyanyi asl sak?!
org tua tu dah ckp since friday F-dress rehearsal lagik..
tu pun lagi nk tolak balak sak..
skg kau nak abg adam join kau nye team to fight ur right??
so abg adam pun dah jatuh pekak ah??
kau tak puas hati..kau fikir aku yg tukar everything..
buat ape aku nak bedek??
pikir kelakar kepe sak??

dalah..stop that blabbering lah..
such a plastic human..
wad's the point of being that??
i knw the fact that everyone hates my attitude soo much..
now..think why i'm like that..and stop saying soo much asshole!

nak hampuk ke smacking ke..pandang lah kat cermin...
kau belum tau sape aku lagi...





btw my other fren*..tnx for the poster..somehow..i will always rate u better
than this big monster..even when we're not together.
somehow..i wanted to give u a letter that day at furama..
but..i need
privacy..ade org mengacau..
after sometimes i cried..bkos of my stupid mistakes..
that words came out bkos i'm angry abt those misunderstanding..
i want to hug u..
i want to be by ur side again..
i miss u lots..
i didnt mean to ungkit the past..
u haf the right to haf what u haf..
even kak ti..
i'm sorry abt these..it hurts u i knw..
is there any chances for us to still be together again??
even if i'm not interested in ur other bestfriend anymore??
pls msg me as soon as u read this..i beg u..tnx..


and abg amy,i felt better when i heard it from ur own mouth..
now i knw..i will always be ur best sis in 3arts..hehe.. i love u abg amy..tke cres ya..

hey..sup..
i just went back home from imm..pheww..tiring..
first,i went to kembangan wif my father..i teman him go take5..
keccooh babe!!
i was perspiring like hell!!
we were rushing from 0ne place to another! that's why!
then,KEKEK!!he bought a new hp..then kecoh2 kat mrt!!haha..
funny lah..
then at imm..we bought 2 tampi..
but tampi jepun..wadeva lah..and..todae's my bdae..hehe..tak tau malu seh..
so..tau2 lah ye semua..tata..

hey ya'll..
me..is back..haha!!
MYE is over!!!
finally!
btw..jonas brothers's songs was kinda nice..hmm..
ellen degeneres' show is like a must to me!haha..kiss my ass!!

17th may:
mothers day performance
venue:Furama hotel 
@ ballroom
time: 2-6??i guess..

7th june:
3arts performance
venue: spore expo

20th july:
spore heritage roadshow
3arts involved
venue: compass point

27th july:
spore heritage roadshow
3arts involved
venue: suntec convention hall

every show is a free admission!
(except performance at furama hotel..sorrie..)
so do come and watch us!
tata!!

i'm grounded guys!!

i cant go on computers!!

ni pun sembunyi2!!

bye!!

hey...

exams keep me waiting..
still pending..shoots!
i went for study wif abg amy this previous sunday..

oklah..soo many things happened..haha!!
mycuzzie, i think we're not fate to meet lah on that day..hehe..
maths!maths!maths! i've been workin hard!!
physics i finally understand..

and phew!! i went home at 9pm from j.e lib that day..
after that,i catch a glance of the last samurai on channel 5!!
oh god!! i'm crying! i cant stand that movie..
it's  so deep..
real warriors..willing to die..for the country..
although dying,still continue..to fight..and fight..and fight..




well gtg now..byebye..


 

i had a kenduri arwah yesterday at my aunt house..
it was always kinda havoc!
i meet my cuzzies!!!
i miss all of em!

btw most of us are taurians!
and this month is our birthdae!
"OUR"!

finally ayun my cuzzie decided to go back to 3arts after soo long!
guh!guh!guh!




to ayun,hey!cya this saturday ok!hehe..

btw i wanna wish happy bdae to:

kak shiela-10th may
ayun-19th may
fiiez-26th may
irfan-27th may
me-16th may

and those who's bdae are in may!
tata!

i've been angry..
everything has happened..
everything has ended..

i know ur not alone syimah..
me too..

i hope this conflict is a lesson for us..
i didnt wanna say it..but i did it..
i cant control myself..i'm sorry..
but i knw,i cant erased the words..

i knw everything..(dikir thingy)
maybe shortcuts are not meant for venting anger..


maybe this is the last time i can say all these words:

i love u!
i love u!
u'll always be in my heart..
and in the past 3 years,
although we haf 9 conflicts.,
i still treasure u..kos u knw y??
u cared for me..
i will never haTE U!
never!
i love u..
i'm sorry bout those words..
i cant erased it..
although i want it..
my attitude sucks!
we're not compatible enuf.
its too late..
now break a leg to u..



with love and tears
-aymah




byebye..

THE 'smarties' people

today,i'm back to normal again..
no more war..its ugly..U-G-L-Y

but an advice to all readers out there..

*make sure whatever u quote does not reflect u
or u'll suffer big shme..
but for me..shame is not a big lose..
ia satu pelajaran buat aku..

i learnt from every mistakes that i do,i dont learn
from good advices..

like what my dad says to my bro b4..
biarkan dier nakal,nti dier tau yg bukan
dier sorang je yg nakal..ade lagi teruk tu kat luar..
jadi jgn fikir kau besar..

betul tu..

hehe..
so..the quotations must be rite ok??
jangan form word sendiri..takut merepek pulak..
oooops!
tnx abg izarr for changing my mind..
i knw..its wasting of time..
aku takkan layan lagilah..
percayalah..

and kalau nak buat quote sendiri,boleh..
make sure ade pengalaman yang kuat
dan gunakan otak (dan hati)ya..
stab pandai tak guna..ni semua aku dah jelak..
ade org tak fhm ape aku post dulu..jdi
terpaksalah aku type bahasa melayu..
kalau tak faham jgk..
entah lah..



*not listening to good advice is not a failure..
successful people nvr listens to advice..
they always haf to face the risk
in order to be successful..
success needs experience..
not only brains..
not only mouth..
trust me..





BTW NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS A FAILURE
OR REMAIN AS ONE  IF THEY NVR WHAT WHAT WHAT..
BUT IF U THINK THERE IS..I SUGGEST
U TO BE THE FIRST OK??:)

yess..

mungkin aku dah gone too far..
i dont wanna get things worst..
i will stop..
i will forget..
i will head to the planning.

but it does not mean i'm giving in or failing..

an ambitious girl is never a failure even without listening to advices..
they are willing to take a risk..

failure is just the beginning of winning..
winning is the way to success..
but success is not final..


i tried to fight for truth but..
its not important anymore..

mum,n dad..sorry for letting u guys down just bkos of this, between me n her..
its hard to haf a child affiliated in 3arts..
there will be  hatred..
gossips..
accusses..
just to get rid of me..
i knw she and me isnt compatible..
so..i must forget her..
one last..sorry to haf let u down..
i'm not a perfect gurl..





perfect





Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect.