yo!!

sup..today's friday and now it's 15 mins to 4am..
i'm enjoying myself right infront of the computer as u can see..
i define myself as crazy for now.
i want morphine.
who wouldn't one morphine in this dire state?rite?
huh..
i'm critically lost.
because i'm attitude.
right?i am right?
yes i am.
but i dont want this..
i still remember, last year october 2007.
someone made me this state.because he's stupid.
yeah.but now, he's still my god brother.
the emonians acts developed during december.
about friendship misunderstanding.
january.i move away from my loved ones.
i need to be alone on that moment,although i cant.
feb and march.everything was fine.but i'm attitude.
i carried out an attitude of sensitivity,negative points and rebelling.
april.i broke up with my bestfriend.long developed story.the end.
may.i'm still the same.even during my birthday.
may 17th, i had a big fight with my the other bestfriend,over
small misunderstanding.then, we're fine.
ppl hate me now.
i'm getting worst.
i know.

now i have to be brighter.
think the positive side.
dont be too sensitive.
enough of ego.
i will still be stubborn.
doing things i'm not suppose to.
because the stubborn in me has nothing to do with my ugly attitude.
but it does not mean i'm being sinful.
it has nothing to do with it.


can you help me?
love me back.
i need ur support.

anywae..its been like a few days i nvr mt my cuzzie..
hey giler,aku miss kau okay.haha
c ya this sat.



*i dont know wether i want to give or not to give.
sometimes i want to move forward without you but sometimes i still
one to be with u and move together with u.
sorry.
i cnt decide.
because i'm afraid to fall again.
i fell a couple of times this few months.
and now i'm in dire state.
i want morphine.
is morphine realli the answer??